Thursday, December 29, 2005

My trip ended..Christmas ended..wasn't a great trip nor Christmas but then great experience...back to work..sick on day 1...bad flu...had annual dinner on wed nite at GB..ordered hell lotsa food but we are able to finish...almost everything double..the best thing was the deep fried soft shell crabs..it was heavenly yummy...unfortunately i cant eat more coz im too heaty...sobz..was quite full..im sure im goin to order all those stuff again...i missed pandan chicken, batter prawns, kerabu, satay, crabs..more more more..im hungry now..i guess i'll go make some sandwich..bye

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Last saturday went for a buffet dinner in Sunway Resort hotel...ew..for the 3rd time..and this time is the suckiest one...less varieties plus taste so bad..but anyway i don't hav to pay for it..forget it..after dinner send sister to airport cuz she has to depart to Japan..waited for the check in stuff bla bla bla..grr..i hate group check in...wasting time...around 10pm said goodbye to her..and miss her..i hope she's getting me my shopping list...woohoo..

goin to singapore this christmas..hope i'll be having a good time and yes i wanna shop!...yawns..i gotta work tmr..ciao

Monday, December 12, 2005

Nice saturday night out with ex coll.mates...not a long gathering but definitely worth it..get to know thier recent life and stuff...then watched Narnia...it was great...

Its a hell day on sunday..went to rpm again then hav to rush back home coz fooi is goin to bring me to hospital to fetch my maid back...okay he was late and it ruined all my plannings...so i went home with my maid riding on a bus..imagine that..oh ya..we walked(with my heels) from tung shin hospital to the bus stop for half an hour then we took a bus home for like 50 minutes..and finally we reached home..fcuking the damn hold thing..y not take a cab? i asked myself...i dunno..? grr..who cares now..i had reached home..blah! btw it was a great experience walking around kl...mind u..its pretty dangerous out there..take care!

it was really unlucky and full of disappointment!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

tough time passes...i felt so much better after a chilling weekend...christmas is around...i've already receive my first present from uncle..thank you...airasia is offering really cheap tickets that makes me wanna go travelling so much...i've just made my passport and ready to go *waits patiently*..felt like getting some pressies for christmas..but then i dun actually need those things...argh..i don't know..i want a christmas card...and erm..maybe i need a tan, massage, spa or something...blah..just bullshiting..im having a week holiday this dec...i've got no plans yet...CALL ME PEOPLE!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

You won't know how suffer to live like this..
You never know how much pain i've passed through these days..
Blinded with tears...forcing it to go on..
What's the meaning of living?
Im still there..

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

You Are Thai Food

Trendy yet complex.
People seek you out - though they're not sure why.


Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.
this are some bored things i did..what do u think?

Monday, November 21, 2005

I'm Depress again...

Thursday, November 10, 2005

I skipped gym...i skipped work...
I ask myself not to wake up...
let continue into the dreamland..
where everything turns so beautiful..
temtations, goaless, meaningless..
couldn't live like this forever...
my life is just a piece of shit...
when u feel so tired and u cant sleep...
im not going to try anymore...


few days ago a friend told me that because of my words he stay..
im very glad of him today..
he has done something proud..


i thought it can be cured...
but..until today..its still like a shadow..
following me..appears and disappear..
please..i wanted to get well..
this is making me so miserable..
i hope this will not end my life..


Please..

Thursday, November 03, 2005

I'm concentrating on 'healing hands 3' for a few days...as a result i've only slept for 4hours today...went to work on morning...slacking here and there cuz there are only 2 of us the whole office...lol..lunch time went to post office to send a parcel for my sweetie yy...my number was 1240 and the number shown was 1140...that means 100 to go...only 1 counter operating at that moment..i waited very patiently...for around 45 minutes..after weighing the parcel the woman asked me to pay Rm20.50 for postage...DAMN..its so expensive to send something out of the country...for once i will send..'kawan baik' mar..blur blur fill up the custom thingy and there goes an hour in post office..back home to have lunch(indomee) as usual...then stick to the monitor for 5 or 6 hours nonstop...just for the drama...i skipped gym..i skipped visiting grandma..i almost skipped my meals..hehe..spent sometime on games then tv again...im goin to blind...round the day up with drinks of course..=)

boredom always kills

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Well..was late for combat class so decided to join the rpm instead...felt quite weird as i was the first timer...'a ride to hell'...this is super tiring...sweat like mad..phew..i was walk floating to ikano..bought a mini card for my sweetie yy..then i walk around..and padini had sales..of course i walk in and take a look..i browse and in the end i bought a top...i told myself i should stop buying any top..but erm..okay okay...money spent...end of sunday..

Friday, October 28, 2005

finally i've find sometime to meet up with my girlfriend...i guess it's been more than a month since last meeting...just couldn't stop talking...i guess girls wont stop gossiping til the end of thier lifes..hahaha...great nite out!

oops..i need to get a birthday card for my sweetie in UK..miss her..perhaps i should buy some more cooking ingredients for her..*thinking*

wish to go some places in the holidays...mm..maybe a 'makan' trip..sounds yummylicious..i love to eat..

Thursday, October 20, 2005

flashed back..

It was last saturday that we actually went to gym...how much fun if we could go together and work out everyday..hehe..u guys are really noisy...bodyjam n bodycombat were good...exhausted..

Sunday was even more tired..11 something went to hospital to see grandma..then lunch with ku mah..after that back to hospital again...adults have meeting and talk non stop while me..taking nap at the lounge..about 3 something we left there and headed to bukit bintang...a place that i've never been to for a long long time..and this time with my family and uncle's family ..how weird..pda fixed..bought some pc games..i guess that would make me occupy for sometime..tired..phew..crossing the roads in kl is dangerous..stupid unfunctioning lights..after shopping it was about 6pm..we all went to jln imbi to have chicken noodle..its not the end of my day yet..i need to accompany my aunt and uncle to metro prima to buy some stuff..im so wore out..and yet after taking bath i still go out with my friends..haha..high spirits huh..hehhe

tuesday nite my aunt and cousins went back to nz...i miss them so much...especially Jason..love u so much my dear..

continue to work hard..damn! ciaoz

Friday, October 14, 2005

My house became so happening these days..everyone came back from nz to see grandma...things went not really smooth for her...we couldn't do much about it..sigh..sigh..sigh..could hardly have good sleep...tired and worried~

Sunday, October 02, 2005

I don't belong to my age..yea..all the things i'm doing was not suppose to be at the age of mine..i still don't understand why should i continue with this kinda life...it is Fucking Bored! Really..i mean..look at urself on the mirror...look what u've done...look! Im not crazy i'm just a little bit unwell..right now u don't care...life was simply annoying..in the end i'll just tell myself "this is ur life and u gotta face it" cliche once more..dumb dumb dumb~

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Bodycombat is always the best thing to make me feel good...tired but great!
Wake up, wake up.

There's people talking.
They talk about me.
They know my name; they think they know everything.
But they don't know anything about me. (about me)

Give me a dance floor.
Give me a DJ.
Play me a record.
Forget what they say.
'Cause I need to go, need to getaway tonight. (tonight)

I put my make-up on a Saturday night.
I try to make it happen.
Try to make it all right.
I know I make mistakes.
I'm living life day to day.
It's never really easy but it's OK. (it's OK)

Wake up, wake up on a Saturday night.
Could be New York.
Maybe Hollywood and Vine.
London. Paris. Maybe Tokyo.
There's something going on anywhere I go tonight.
Tonight. Yeah, tonight. (tonight)

The city's restless.
It's all around me.
People in motion.
They're sick of all the same routines.
And they need to go; they need to getaway tonight. (tonight)

I put my make-up on a Saturday night.
I try to make it happen.
Try to make it all right.
I know I make mistakes.
I'm living life day to day.
It's never really easy but it's OK.

Wake up, wake up on a Saturday night.
Could be New York.
Maybe Hollywood and Vine.
London. Paris. Maybe Tokyo.
There's something going on anywhere I go tonight.
Tonight. Yeah, tonight. (tonight)

People all around you everywhere that you go.
People all around you, they don't really know you.
Everybody's watching like it's some kind of show.
Everybody's watching, they don't really know you now.
(they don't really know you, they don't really know you)
And forever. (and forever)

Wake up, wake up. (wake up, wake up)
Wake up, wake up. (wake up, wake up)

Wake up, wake up on a Saturday night.
Could be New York.
Maybe Hollywood and Vine.
London. Paris. Maybe Tokyo.
There's something going on anywhere I go.

Wake up, wake up on a Saturday night.
Could be New York.
Maybe Hollywood and Vine.
London. Paris. Maybe Tokyo.
There's something going on anywhere I go (anywhere I go) tonight.
Tonight. Yeah, tonight.

Wake up, wake up.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Finally i've joined a gym...life wouldn't be so bored after this...=)

Sunday, September 18, 2005

fcuking annoyed..but what can i do? It's an called off for the year end trip..things are always fail at the last minute..okay..accept the fact my dear...im drunk...ignore this..

Friday, September 16, 2005

I don't know why..it seems that the workload is getting much heavier...It's Fcuking busy nowadays...im getting more annoyed with this stupid job...okay...let's face it..i'm looking forward for good things to happen!

Sunday, September 11, 2005

update..

i guess i should let u all know what's happening recently..
basically im busying with my family..
running to/from hospital..
i know im not a good care taker..
im trying my best to do whatever i can..
i pray hard for all of them to recover soon..

muakx!

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Shiver

I walk a mile with a smile.
I don't know I don't care where I am,
But I know it's all right.
Jump the tracks, can't get back.
I don't know anyone round here,
But I'm safe this time.

'Cause when you tell me, tell me, tell me
Stupid things like you do,
Yes I have to, have to, have to
Change the rules; I can't lose.

'Cause I shiver, I just break up.
When I'm near you it all gets out of hand.
Yes I shiver, I get bent up.
There's no way back.
I know you'll understand.

We talk and talk, round it all.
Who'd have thought we'd end up here?
But I'm feeling fine.
In a rush never trust, you'll be there
If I'd only stop and take my time.

'Cause with you I'm running, running, running
Somewhere I can't get to.
Yes I have to, have to, have to
Change the rules; I'm with you.

'Cause I shiver, I just break up.
When I'm near you it all gets out of hand.
Yes I shiver, I get bent up.
There's no way back.
I know you'll understand.

What if you get off at the next stop?
Would you just wave as I'm drifting off?
And if I never saw you again
Could I (could I) keep all (all of) of this (of this) inside?

'Cause I shiver, I just break up.
When I'm near you it all gets out of hand.
Yes I shiver, I get bent up.
There's no way back.
I know you'll understand.

(I'm running but my heart won't keep up.
This feeling that I'm feeling is too much.
There's nothing that can slow me down now.
I'm running but I'll catch you somehow.)

I shiver. I shiver.

Yes I shiver, I just break up.
When I'm near you it all gets out of hand.
Yes I shiver, I get bent up.
There's no way back.
I know you'll understand.

Monday, August 29, 2005

The immatureness..

The thinking..the action..the outlook..the conversation..

Perhaps we should grow..

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Im finally sick..fever..cough..running nose..blah..im really weak...rolled about in the bed i couldn't have a good sleep...i woke up 3 times...bones are aching..i finally get up at 1030am to have medicine...then gone to bed again at 1130am...slept until 5pm...that was long...im almost killed by sneezing too much...so dead..have no appetite at all..i wish i could get better tmr..sigh~

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

7 of us(kumon staffs)went to pizzahut to have our lunch...haha..the staffs there as usual have blardy bad service...we had the explosive pizza again...so many stories to talk about..hehe...the haze is critical..i could hardly breathe out there...even inside the office with air-con still its kinda blur indoor...gotta take care!


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critical condition!!!(from office)

Monday, August 08, 2005

It was the last class of my photoshop lesson...although i hate to wake up so early on saturday but i pay a lot of attention during class...i guess i'll continue the next level later in september...i love photoshop!

well..it's brother Kian birthday party at nite...so i spent more than 2 hours on wrapping the pressie..i was really tired to get those ingredients...haha..

okay..after a short nap its 8 something...prepared to go for party...we are consider late...9 something and they already cut the bd cake...boring~ kian is drunk..im drunk as well in the end..hehe..im looking forward for another dinner!!

Friday, August 05, 2005

hmm..Its sunday morning im waking up...shopping day with my girls before yeen yee go off to uk..at first we went to sg.wang..then we just walk around...bought something which i dont think i needed it...as yy was really sick..decided to send her home and 3 of us continue our shopping at 1U...back home at about 7something...legs aching...got out for dinner again then continue with drinking session with them...basically i stay for not more than 15 minutes at home..haha...

monday nite was farewell dinner for yy...wish her all the best in uk..=)

The japanese exchange student came...her name is Misato...got 2 days leave to bring her sight seeing...it was quite tiring...the weather is freaking hot...sweating like mad...i've still got thousand tonnes of things to do...gone mad now...it took me 3days to finish this post...u can see how busy am i..

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

running on the endless path

Gossips and more gossips in the office...althought bad mouthing is bad..but we just couldn't stand Jen- that is our boss...okok..spent whole morning n lunch time talking..hehe...the whole afternoon i was so drowsy cause by the lack of sleep...

I remembered it was 210am...rain poured heavily and wind was blowing hard...the wind slip through the sliding door and the window creating some scary noise...'WeE~ wEe' that was what i heard before i fall asleep...

Most of my friends was complaining bored or sien...well..i was one of them in the past...and now i realise the more u complain about the more bored it is...erm..my life now is quite fulfilling actually...i work everyday..i have class on saturday..i play at night...i have shopping...i should be contented...but u know...sometimes people just want more...everyone is greedy...so..u must wonder..what do i want?

My answer : Dunno~

Monday, July 25, 2005

a busy week just passed...but i know there are things still coming up...it never stop..brother's birthday this saturday..yeen yee is leaving next tuesday...party on 6th august...gonna have a great time there...hehe..

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

I've disappeared for so long and it's time to back to blogging...weather is such a mess recently...caught a cold yesterday...kinda busy this week...

just realise that my food expectation has gone higher...its really hard for me to give a 'pass' or 'good' to those food...well..u can say im hard to please..=)

Been working hard on photo editing...my work is quite bad actually...si fu also cant help much..sigh..back to work now..

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Im so dead so dead..morning went for photoshop class...great~ i learned how to create brushes and masking...tried it at home...and it works..hehe..glad...*yawns* took a very small nap(20 minutes) before i go out again...sigh...im out at 240pm...went for the final meeting in cheras...phew everything came to an end...1 more prep.meet on monday nite to settle stuff...wait for the big event on sunday and jobs are done...hope that everything is under control..i'll take my shower now and will be goin for dinner..tired n dead..ciaoz!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

recent life

It Seems to be fine after all...i do agree that spending do makes me get better~ well..did some shopping and singing this week...yet im still feeling bored...i guess i'll give myself some more time to get back to normal...im healthier nowadays coz im changing my lifestyle...controling what i should eat and what should avoid...sleeping on time...bla..i donno if these will help..but i'll try...*yawns* its time to go to bed..ciao!

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

tears rolling..
it did not drop..
i know it wasn't all from me..
a part of it could be from others..
its nagging..
it cant stop..
it came over and over again..
half side of the brain tells me to calm..
the other side tells me to think..
its been really stressful..
tension arises..
depression strikes one more time..
im so dead..

even doctor could not help!

Saturday, July 02, 2005

how could this happen to me

I open my eyes
I try to see but was blinded by the white light.
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I cant make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I want to start this over again
So I try to hold
On to a time when
Nothing mattered
And I can't explain
What happened and I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
How could this happen to me

Thursday, June 30, 2005

I guess i might stop blogging for sometime until i get better..

Dont have to worry about me..Im fine at the moment..

Hope to see you guys soon~

Sunday, June 26, 2005

14.5 hours
This is my hibernation hours for sunday..
I felt so numb after getting up..
Dinner with family..then desserts at Mcd..
Bloated..sunday..thats all..

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Lost

There was a maze.
I walked in.
Giving it a try.
Different ways.
I was confused.
Keep on walking.
I don't mind it takes time.
Dead end,i turn around.
Looking for the glowing path.
A map on my hand.
I did not make use of it.
It wasn't stupid.
I believe in intuition.
Crossroads.
I'm tired.
I stopped.
I think.
My decisions?
I did not made.
My mind froze.
My heart sank.
No turning back.
I felt insecure.
I screamed.
I needed help.
Nobody answers.
I sat down.
Tears rolling.
I'm alone.
In the middle.
I lost my way.


Wednesday, June 22, 2005

i shouldn't..i shouldn't went out at 1am...

was whacked in the morning...

they were shouting at me for waking late...

tortures continues at the dental clinic...

im worn out..

good bye..

Monday, June 20, 2005

my sunday

its whopper again for dinner cum supper coz i dozed off when parents went for dinner...felt so sleepy after teatime with those guys...took a little nap...woke by pennie's sms...asking me where to buy cheese for pasta...weird..haha...went out again at nite...wanted to go starbucks but i havent got my dinner yet...so 3 of us went to burger king lo...sienz d weekend````

Saturday, June 18, 2005

You know how sad it is to be alone...? I can give you an answer today...Doing things all alone...eating Maggi at home alone...i felt that im so poor...having my toothache but nobody cares...hardly fall asleep last night...i've become so weak...even there's food on the table,i could hardly eat...i went for meeting today...i think it was fun...everytime kids cheer me up in some ways...it was tired to practise those dancing steps...i think i've made some mistakes teaching them...the dental clinic was closed when i came back...i might need to get up early tomorrow morning...i wish next week i'll be fine..

Friday, June 17, 2005

gummy thingy

nyeh...i finally settle with the cd...i did not work on the morning...sick cum lazy...my gum is swollen and its damn painful...i just dont have time to treat it...it was torturing me for few days...grr..today im really gone mad with it...colleague tot that someone slap me on my face...lol..how funny~ having trouble to consume my meals...i hate that..grr..

Thursday, June 16, 2005

i ain't a good liar

luck was't at my side today...as usual went to work on the morning...at 1pm fetch cc and had lunch together...he accompany me to the interview...i was a little nervous at first but after i reach the office everything seems different...the office is with old interior with not so comfortable environment...messy~ after filling up those thick forms..me n another girl waited for interviews...so...the girl was being called...and i waited alone patiently...a total of 1 n half hour i waited...i was quite mad actually but have to pretend to be calm...what shit is this? When i go in...the boss actually ask me to sit down and start QUESTIONING me...like i was involve in some crime...this blardy old fox was using a lot of sharp question to me...i was a lil stone..grr..i just lie a bit to him since he wanted to hear those words...nyeh..idiot old shit! came out from the room less than 10minutes...ha...u know what's goin on huh? Lots more preparation work to do for this coming saturday meeting..phew..tired...

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

These 2 days was my busiest days in life~ phew...i actually had a lot to write yesterday n today...but i was quite sick u see...i was having bad flu and i din get enough sleep...my brain froze..eyes are nearly closed...i continue working today...i just don't want to disappoint myself...i had had too much holidays...i need money now...

backed to work..i felt some kinda of loneliness and no sense of belonging anymore...i wasn't an important person anymore...i hate those new implementations...i hate those stupid memo...i dont find myself enjoy working like before...work is giving me some pressure...well..i can manage it anyway...maybe its time to change my working enviroment...im not sure whether to leave or not...im confuse...shall i leave for another job or shall i spend the whole year in kumon?

stuck in this moment

im sick of all this

Life is such painful

I wish i wasn't born to this world

Saturday, June 11, 2005

I did not get what i want today...shopping wasn't fun at all...i was very upset tho...i've got myself a 'not so suitable' sweater...thats it...i need more formal wear...darn..im disappointed...im tired..got no dinner..no nothing...im having living disorder...i dunno...im dizzy..im dozing but i wanna go out...seems like i have lotsa plans lining up...im just too lazy to do anything...i wanna go out...im bored
Hello Unfair world!

Why am i being born so petite...

i hate u world
i hate u fashion
i hate u Fay!
exam is over...i've wasted half of a day to sleep...sorry my friend..i missed the lunch...i was sooo bored today...rain falls...thunder storm frightened me...no tvs no internet no food...im so dead at home...lucky i got to go out at nite with the folks...how imaginative you are..my dear frens...lol...its time to go..ciaoz!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

cry of despair

i was crying...i was dreaming...it was a horrible dream...i dream of loosing mom to a virus attack...im so scared...crying in the dream and also in reality...im afraid to lose her...i love u mom!
I felt some kinda depress inside me now..*sigh*

uncertainty

im not sure...not sure when im goin to bed...wad should i do next?? i really dun have any mood for revision...im confused...there's sumthing bugging me...wad is that..maybe i've got the answer deep inside my heart...argh...headache...i think im goin to somewhere tomorrow for breathing and mind relaxation...Where? i dunno...crapping...im asking myself...should i work hard on this?...or..should i just give up? hey guys gimme some idea..

Monday, June 06, 2005

insomniac

520am today, a lil late huh..thx to the Whopper...wonder how many calories are there...i'm quite awake now...but i'm getting myself to bed soon...i was browsing lotsa pictures i took this few year..i miss those trips i had..i'm not goin to anywhere lately...bz..!! Im goin back to work on june 13..*sigh* I want more holidays...i wish it was 'paid' holidays..LOL...stop dreaming la...idiot! you should go to bed now..

Saturday, June 04, 2005

messing up~

my neopet is sick...she needs a rare medicine...i dunhav so much for that...sigh...i need 100000 for that...i felt guilty for her n oso myself...i have not been studying much lately...im addicted to the internet and yet i dunno what to do when im connected...wth is happening to me?? help! Few more days to go...im goin to Hell!

Friday, June 03, 2005

incomplete

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

over

I watch the walls around me crumble
but it's not like I wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time your the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

Over... Over... Over...

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
tell me that it's over
over

Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over
Sneeze..sneeze..sneeze...dizzy...dizzy...doze off...work...work...work...blur~~~~resume is giving me a BIG BIG headache...finally i got to finish it...Sent!

Friday, May 27, 2005

sad sad sad...BO lose in American idol...watched a chinese drama just now...*sobx*.. sad show...

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Had a wonderful birthday yesterday...thank you for everyone's blessing...i love u all...Muakz!! CheerZ!!

Sunday, May 22, 2005

hmm...just met up with uncle peter...he told me stories on the recent trip to nz...'PR' thingy was such a mess...luckily im not goin overseas or something...i love malaysia and am not leaving...he brought some fruits which is quite weird..hehe..i like persimmons...they look delicious...ah..well..hope there will be a dinner soon so i can hear more stories of him...challenging the difficulties of migrations n stuff...good day ppl!


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weird fruit~forgot d name~



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persimmon~yum!

Friday, May 20, 2005

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conman under the glass bottom boat


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i love this pic


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artsy thingy~


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crystal clear water


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slacking on bed


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me n carmen at the beach

REDANG TRIP 2005

hello world im back from redang island..

1st day of our trip(16/7)

late arrival at the airport..*yawn*...after checking in the baggage waited at the hall...there we met another group of youngster...we called them 'Roxy gang'...hehe..the flight was suppose to leave at 820am...but our plane was having some technical problems after we went on board halfway down the runway..gotta come down back to the hall and wait for another plane to take us off...damn! another half n hour...finally the plane take off at about 950am...the plane was a bloody old jet...no aircon..umcomfortable seats...scary engine sounds...yuck! everyone took some rest on the plane...*snooze*..reached redang airport at about 11am...nice sky..hehe..after we took our luggage we ride on a bus to the resort...ah...along the ride...we saw some lil village and some staff houses...kampung feel..ah...finally we reached the resort...check in again~~headed to our chalets...it was okay..nice and tidy...but smaller than the previous one...after settling down we took a walk at the beach exploring here n there...BIG disappointment...the sea wasn't blue...it was crystal green...*sad*...guys got into the water while we girls just walk along the beach and the floating jetty...looking at fishes under the water...jumping from boat to boat taking pictures...*fun*...the loveliest was the glass bottom boat...the guys swim under it and we took pictures of them on the boat..haha...after sometime at the beach went back to the room for a shower...*groo groo* stomach calling...we decided to walked out the resort and have our lunch at the malay stall nearby...its call 'Aima seafood'...price was slightly expensive but it was okay as we have no other choices...the food was 'ahem'...after lunch we went to fun club and have a pool game...*yawns* get our ass out and took a short nap until 7pm...yes! dinner time...haha..everyone was looking forward on it...went to the restaurant..got our seats and start rushing for food...food was quite nice tho...keat was having about 5 dishes Full...imagine how many stomach he has got...lol...i love cheese cake the most..yummmy^^ burp~ took a walk around the place and back to the room...gamble time!!! chor D n rummi...*yawns again* snooze..


2nd day(17/5)

'fay fay~~~woke up~~~late for breakfast'everyone took turns to wake me...keke...'mm' answered by me...i hate breakfast time...walking n keep yawning to the restaurant...i ate quite a lot...burp..there goes a few kilos...damn...back to the hotel...water time...i wanted to tan but at last i ended up in the water...i just went soaking in the water...after beach its pool time...soaking in the pool again...bla...its time for them to get to marine park...left me,carmen and cc...decided to took a shower and have lunch outside...we ordered quite a lot of stuff today...grill fish,sotong, tom yum and more...after eating we talk talk n talk...until we forgot the time...540pm...keat n kk found us...surprisingly...they saw us during the journey back from the jetty...we got back to the room and 'poop'..i fall asleep...'hey,dinner time' my frens are the 'best-est' alarm..hehe...this time the potato skins and salad fill up my plates...a band is performing at the restaurant...it was awesome...the night time activity was in the fun club...played pool and 'mahjong'-the loveliest game...we played for about 1 hour and everyone got addicted..hehe...too bad it closes at 11pm...back to the room watching 'tong pak fu'....wakakakaka...such a funny movie and everyone was enjoying it so much...at midnight..we went out to the beach for a walk...it was so dark and we could hardly see anything...low tide at that moment...there i yawns again...lights off!


3rd day(18/5)

breakfast...my appetite was pretty good...i ate 2 bowls of cereal...yum! i love cornflakes...as i was tooooo sleepy, im back into bed after eating...*pig* 4 of them r goin to spa and left us 3 in the resort..carmen n cc went out to play pool while me continuing my sweet dreams.. hehe...after sometime i heard noises...i know all of them are back...they are making me to change so that we can play at the beach...okay..after more persuasion..i finally get up...we took pictures at the beach hut and oso at the shore...i enjoyed myself soaking in the water under the hot sun...i steal breads from the boat and feed the fish near the floating jetty...fun fun fun...i can see so many hungry fishes there...finally we decided to 'canoe'...cc and kian got themselves on to the canoe first while me n carmen get ourselves a double canoe...this is the first time playing canoe...2 of us paddle quite hard to another land...kk,keat and pc joined no longer...we picked some shells and started our journey to another beach...2 of us was extremely exhausted...as this is the first time we dont know how to direct the canoe...and guess what? a big fishing boat was nearby and we are still stopping there...god! *panic* kian n cc ask us to paddle off...so 2 of us paddle sooo hard until we stay far away from the boat...'phew' it was close...something that we both missed is that they were able to paddle to another land and see corals and see turtle...and we both girls are too exhausted...too bad...but it was really really fun!!! all of us paddle back to the shore and exchange canoes...i get on a single canoe and started paddling...shit! it was hard...gotta use more stamina...i try paddling nearby...and kian shouted that there's a boat coming in...damn...cc n kian try to pull me off the jetty so that it is safe...=(...when the boat came near..it created big waves...at this moment...we paddle back to the shore...it was so fun to paddle on waves...*syok* after parking our canoe...we went to the water and 'float' with the life jacket...cooling...NIcE! we took group photos with out paddle at the beach..hehe...after returning the stuff we r in the pool again..hehe...soaking again...trying to cool down the body...back to shower after that...Exhausting Day! right after shower we walked out to get our stomach fill...we had dinner in another restaurant outside the resort...again we ordered a whole table of food...hmm..lousy food..but i wasnt expecting too much...bought some mineral water and snack back to the room...headed to fun club again for 'mahjong'...this time we rented for 2 hours...wakakaka...i was a lil dizzy at that moment...din play much...thier skills are improving so much...i was a bit blur blur during the game...2 hours passed...uncle asked us to stop playing coz he's closing the door already...went back to room and watches tv...after the show everyone goes to bed...*tired*


4th day(19/5)

no breakfast for today...5 of them went canoeing again...actually i wanted to join too..but i slept late...so i accompany carmen to take some pictures...we went to the beach...the hut...around the resort...took quite a lot of pictures...i picked a few flowers from the garden and we took pictures with it...hehehe...fun! while taking pictures near our suite...they r back...everyone took thier shower and packed up things...carmen ordered a pizza and we have it for lunch in the room...well...its time to check out...i called a buggy to take out luggage down the lobby...after settling those payments we rode a bus to the airport...goodbye berjaya! check in counter was closed...so we played chor dai d at the custom table...hahaha...waited for about 10 minutes...kian settles the air ticket while we waited at the side...the plane arrives on time...but when we tot we can go on board...technical problem again...damn.! delayed for about 30 minutes...finally! soon after departure everyone started to snooze...*blink* arrived at subang...dad fetches me,cc,kian n carmen while the 3 of them took taxi backed home...reached home...home sweet home...they transfer thier luggage into my car and we headed to abaz for lunch at about 4pm...we were so hungry and everyone was doubling up thier food consuming..haha..me too..so fat! at nite...went to have bak kut teh for dinner...delicious..reviewing on the trip...discussing about the 'roxy girl' and other stuff..hehe..after that they came to my house to get those pictures...and now my shoulders are burned and im so tanned..haha...im writing this for 2 hours n more...ah...FINISH

END OF VACATION

Monday, May 16, 2005

a small truth to make our lives 100%
~~

if
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is equal to
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 1718 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

then hardwork=
H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K =
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% only

knowledge=
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E=
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% only

love=
L+O+V+E=
12+15+22+5=54% only

luck=
L+U+C+K =
12+21+3+11 = 47% only (don't most of us think this is most important???)

then what makes 100% is it
money? ..... no
leadership? ...... no

every problem has a solution, only if
we perhaps change our attitude. to
go to the top, to that 100%.

what we really need to go further, a
bit more.......
attitude=
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E =
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

it is our attitude towards life and
work that makes our life 100%

what i need is LOVE + LUCK that makes it = 101%


















Your #1 Match: ISFP




The Artist

You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.

You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.


Your #2 Match: INFP




The Idealist

You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.

You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.


Your #3 Match: ISTP




The Mechanic

You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.
A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.
To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.
You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.

You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.


Your #4 Match: ESFP




The Performer

You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.
A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.
You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.
You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.

You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.


Your #5 Match: INTP




The Thinker

You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can.
Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge.
Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat.
A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it.

You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.






You Will Die at Age 73



73





You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.


Sunday, May 15, 2005

hmm..a few more hours i'll be leaving...oh shit..i dun feel like going...wtf am i thinking...just got all the packs done..F..be back on thursday!

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Archoo~~~~sneezing cause by insufficient sleeping...i worked and worked and worked..too much of workloads...wish samantha could stay...4 more days to holiday...get the ass out of here...woo hoo~

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Fly~

IN A moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulderS
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
'Cause it's your time
Time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
'Cause it's your time
Time to fly

And when you're down and feeling low,
Just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

In a moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life(can't in life)
and start to try
Fly
Forget about the reasons why you
can't in life(can't in life)
and start to try (start to try)
'cause it's your time, time to fly

Any moment everything can change

Saturday, May 07, 2005

guilty

VS 1 - (DUNCAN)

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

CHORUS - (LEE)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]

Then I'm guilty

VS2 - (SIMON)
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - LEE)
I never wanted to live a lie

CHORUS - (LEE)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - ALL
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - ALL
Then I'm guilty

BRIDGE - (ANTONY)
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

CHORUS - (LEE)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - ALL
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - ALL
Then I'm guilty

OUTRO
What am I supposed to do (Duncan)
Then I'm guilty (Lee)
All I wanna do is speak my mind (All)
Gulity (Lee)
Then I'm guilty (Lee)
I'm prepared to testify (Duncan)
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside (Lee)
If loving you with all my hearts a crime (All)
I'm Guilty (Duncan)

excessive depression

My feelings for everything has gone...drove by myself...listening to loud music in the car...my heart was like stop beating...so calm..so calm...brains are empty...i sped a little...wish to get home as soon as possible...i know that my 'good old friend' came to find me...know this 'friend' since i was f3...okok...the 'friend' i am refering was my 'depression syndrome'...perhaps these days im locking myself up at home...i wish i can stop using my brain to think...it makes me suffer quite a lot...going to RIP soon..

Friday, May 06, 2005

more to life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

CHORUS:
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more

(Than wanting more)

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

CHORUS

I'm wanting more

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...

CHORUS - repeat twice

More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life

somewhere only we know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So, if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This can be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And, if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Listening to Shut up by simple plan...feel extremely good...wasn't having any good mood these few days...maybe im too bored or something...I hate myself...i couldn't do anything to cheer up...im thinking quite a lot these days...am i that stressful? I donno...i'll be dying soon...so soon~