I guess i might stop blogging for sometime until i get better..

Dont have to worry about me..Im fine at the moment..

Hope to see you guys soon~

14.5 hours
This is my hibernation hours for sunday..
I felt so numb after getting up..
Dinner with family..then desserts at Mcd..
Bloated..sunday..thats all..

Lost

There was a maze.
I walked in.
Giving it a try.
Different ways.
I was confused.
Keep on walking.
I don't mind it takes time.
Dead end,i turn around.
Looking for the glowing path.
A map on my hand.
I did not make use of it.
It wasn't stupid.
I believe in intuition.
Crossroads.
I'm tired.
I stopped.
I think.
My decisions?
I did not made.
My mind froze.
My heart sank.
No turning back.
I felt insecure.
I screamed.
I needed help.
Nobody answers.
I sat down.
Tears rolling.
I'm alone.
In the middle.
I lost my way.

i shouldn't..i shouldn't went out at 1am...

was whacked in the morning...

they were shouting at me for waking late...

tortures continues at the dental clinic...

im worn out..

good bye..

my sunday

its whopper again for dinner cum supper coz i dozed off when parents went for dinner...felt so sleepy after teatime with those guys...took a little nap...woke by pennie's sms...asking me where to buy cheese for pasta...weird..haha...went out again at nite...wanted to go starbucks but i havent got my dinner yet...so 3 of us went to burger king lo...sienz d weekend````

You know how sad it is to be alone...? I can give you an answer today...Doing things all alone...eating Maggi at home alone...i felt that im so poor...having my toothache but nobody cares...hardly fall asleep last night...i've become so weak...even there's food on the table,i could hardly eat...i went for meeting today...i think it was fun...everytime kids cheer me up in some ways...it was tired to practise those dancing steps...i think i've made some mistakes teaching them...the dental clinic was closed when i came back...i might need to get up early tomorrow morning...i wish next week i'll be fine..

gummy thingy

nyeh...i finally settle with the cd...i did not work on the morning...sick cum lazy...my gum is swollen and its damn painful...i just dont have time to treat it...it was torturing me for few days...grr..today im really gone mad with it...colleague tot that someone slap me on my face...lol..how funny~ having trouble to consume my meals...i hate that..grr..

i ain't a good liar

luck was't at my side today...as usual went to work on the morning...at 1pm fetch cc and had lunch together...he accompany me to the interview...i was a little nervous at first but after i reach the office everything seems different...the office is with old interior with not so comfortable environment...messy~ after filling up those thick forms..me n another girl waited for interviews...so...the girl was being called...and i waited alone patiently...a total of 1 n half hour i waited...i was quite mad actually but have to pretend to be calm...what shit is this? When i go in...the boss actually ask me to sit down and start QUESTIONING me...like i was involve in some crime...this blardy old fox was using a lot of sharp question to me...i was a lil stone..grr..i just lie a bit to him since he wanted to hear those words...nyeh..idiot old shit! came out from the room less than 10minutes...ha...u know what's goin on huh? Lots more preparation work to do for this coming saturday meeting..phew..tired...

These 2 days was my busiest days in life~ phew...i actually had a lot to write yesterday n today...but i was quite sick u see...i was having bad flu and i din get enough sleep...my brain froze..eyes are nearly closed...i continue working today...i just don't want to disappoint myself...i had had too much holidays...i need money now...

backed to work..i felt some kinda of loneliness and no sense of belonging anymore...i wasn't an important person anymore...i hate those new implementations...i hate those stupid memo...i dont find myself enjoy working like before...work is giving me some pressure...well..i can manage it anyway...maybe its time to change my working enviroment...im not sure whether to leave or not...im confuse...shall i leave for another job or shall i spend the whole year in kumon?

stuck in this moment

im sick of all this

Life is such painful

I wish i wasn't born to this world

I did not get what i want today...shopping wasn't fun at all...i was very upset tho...i've got myself a 'not so suitable' sweater...thats it...i need more formal wear...darn..im disappointed...im tired..got no dinner..no nothing...im having living disorder...i dunno...im dizzy..im dozing but i wanna go out...seems like i have lotsa plans lining up...im just too lazy to do anything...i wanna go out...im bored

Hello Unfair world!

Why am i being born so petite...

i hate u world
i hate u fashion
i hate u Fay!

exam is over...i've wasted half of a day to sleep...sorry my friend..i missed the lunch...i was sooo bored today...rain falls...thunder storm frightened me...no tvs no internet no food...im so dead at home...lucky i got to go out at nite with the folks...how imaginative you are..my dear frens...lol...its time to go..ciaoz!

cry of despair

i was crying...i was dreaming...it was a horrible dream...i dream of loosing mom to a virus attack...im so scared...crying in the dream and also in reality...im afraid to lose her...i love u mom!

I felt some kinda depress inside me now..*sigh*

uncertainty

im not sure...not sure when im goin to bed...wad should i do next?? i really dun have any mood for revision...im confused...there's sumthing bugging me...wad is that..maybe i've got the answer deep inside my heart...argh...headache...i think im goin to somewhere tomorrow for breathing and mind relaxation...Where? i dunno...crapping...im asking myself...should i work hard on this?...or..should i just give up? hey guys gimme some idea..

insomniac

520am today, a lil late huh..thx to the Whopper...wonder how many calories are there...i'm quite awake now...but i'm getting myself to bed soon...i was browsing lotsa pictures i took this few year..i miss those trips i had..i'm not goin to anywhere lately...bz..!! Im goin back to work on june 13..*sigh* I want more holidays...i wish it was 'paid' holidays..LOL...stop dreaming la...idiot! you should go to bed now..

messing up~

my neopet is sick...she needs a rare medicine...i dunhav so much for that...sigh...i need 100000 for that...i felt guilty for her n oso myself...i have not been studying much lately...im addicted to the internet and yet i dunno what to do when im connected...wth is happening to me?? help! Few more days to go...im goin to Hell!

incomplete

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete