There has been too much emotions going on..and somehow i do not know how to express it out...been sick for too long that i couldn't even remember...things aren't working too well...i would say it's a bad start for the year and i hope the future will be getting better..

I wish i could do some self improvement this year...tried and i keep failing myself...today has become the worst day of the year...never have this feeling for a while..and it came back to me..i broke down with tears...i feel the pain..i do..

I need to leave for vacation again..