over

I watch the walls around me crumble
but it's not like I wont build them up again
so here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts cause it will end
And my tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
but at the same time your the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
and the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right if were not in it together
tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Yeah, I'll be the first to go
Don't wanna be the last to know

Over... Over... Over...

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

Chorus:
I can't live without you
Can't breathe without you
I'm dreaming about you, honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It won't be right we're not in it together
tell me that it's over
tell me that it's over
over

Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me

Don't tell me that it's over
Don't tell me that it's over

Sneeze..sneeze..sneeze...dizzy...dizzy...doze off...work...work...work...blur~~~~resume is giving me a BIG BIG headache...finally i got to finish it...Sent!

sad sad sad...BO lose in American idol...watched a chinese drama just now...*sobx*.. sad show...

Had a wonderful birthday yesterday...thank you for everyone's blessing...i love u all...Muakz!! CheerZ!!

hmm...just met up with uncle peter...he told me stories on the recent trip to nz...'PR' thingy was such a mess...luckily im not goin overseas or something...i love malaysia and am not leaving...he brought some fruits which is quite weird..hehe..i like persimmons...they look delicious...ah..well..hope there will be a dinner soon so i can hear more stories of him...challenging the difficulties of migrations n stuff...good day ppl!



weird fruit~forgot d name~




persimmon~yum!

conman under the glass bottom boat



i love this pic



artsy thingy~



crystal clear water



slacking on bed



me n carmen at the beach

REDANG TRIP 2005

hello world im back from redang island..

1st day of our trip(16/7)

late arrival at the airport..*yawn*...after checking in the baggage waited at the hall...there we met another group of youngster...we called them 'Roxy gang'...hehe..the flight was suppose to leave at 820am...but our plane was having some technical problems after we went on board halfway down the runway..gotta come down back to the hall and wait for another plane to take us off...damn! another half n hour...finally the plane take off at about 950am...the plane was a bloody old jet...no aircon..umcomfortable seats...scary engine sounds...yuck! everyone took some rest on the plane...*snooze*..reached redang airport at about 11am...nice sky..hehe..after we took our luggage we ride on a bus to the resort...ah...along the ride...we saw some lil village and some staff houses...kampung feel..ah...finally we reached the resort...check in again~~headed to our chalets...it was okay..nice and tidy...but smaller than the previous one...after settling down we took a walk at the beach exploring here n there...BIG disappointment...the sea wasn't blue...it was crystal green...*sad*...guys got into the water while we girls just walk along the beach and the floating jetty...looking at fishes under the water...jumping from boat to boat taking pictures...*fun*...the loveliest was the glass bottom boat...the guys swim under it and we took pictures of them on the boat..haha...after sometime at the beach went back to the room for a shower...*groo groo* stomach calling...we decided to walked out the resort and have our lunch at the malay stall nearby...its call 'Aima seafood'...price was slightly expensive but it was okay as we have no other choices...the food was 'ahem'...after lunch we went to fun club and have a pool game...*yawns* get our ass out and took a short nap until 7pm...yes! dinner time...haha..everyone was looking forward on it...went to the restaurant..got our seats and start rushing for food...food was quite nice tho...keat was having about 5 dishes Full...imagine how many stomach he has got...lol...i love cheese cake the most..yummmy^^ burp~ took a walk around the place and back to the room...gamble time!!! chor D n rummi...*yawns again* snooze..


2nd day(17/5)

'fay fay~~~woke up~~~late for breakfast'everyone took turns to wake me...keke...'mm' answered by me...i hate breakfast time...walking n keep yawning to the restaurant...i ate quite a lot...burp..there goes a few kilos...damn...back to the hotel...water time...i wanted to tan but at last i ended up in the water...i just went soaking in the water...after beach its pool time...soaking in the pool again...bla...its time for them to get to marine park...left me,carmen and cc...decided to took a shower and have lunch outside...we ordered quite a lot of stuff today...grill fish,sotong, tom yum and more...after eating we talk talk n talk...until we forgot the time...540pm...keat n kk found us...surprisingly...they saw us during the journey back from the jetty...we got back to the room and 'poop'..i fall asleep...'hey,dinner time' my frens are the 'best-est' alarm..hehe...this time the potato skins and salad fill up my plates...a band is performing at the restaurant...it was awesome...the night time activity was in the fun club...played pool and 'mahjong'-the loveliest game...we played for about 1 hour and everyone got addicted..hehe...too bad it closes at 11pm...back to the room watching 'tong pak fu'....wakakakaka...such a funny movie and everyone was enjoying it so much...at midnight..we went out to the beach for a walk...it was so dark and we could hardly see anything...low tide at that moment...there i yawns again...lights off!


3rd day(18/5)

breakfast...my appetite was pretty good...i ate 2 bowls of cereal...yum! i love cornflakes...as i was tooooo sleepy, im back into bed after eating...*pig* 4 of them r goin to spa and left us 3 in the resort..carmen n cc went out to play pool while me continuing my sweet dreams.. hehe...after sometime i heard noises...i know all of them are back...they are making me to change so that we can play at the beach...okay..after more persuasion..i finally get up...we took pictures at the beach hut and oso at the shore...i enjoyed myself soaking in the water under the hot sun...i steal breads from the boat and feed the fish near the floating jetty...fun fun fun...i can see so many hungry fishes there...finally we decided to 'canoe'...cc and kian got themselves on to the canoe first while me n carmen get ourselves a double canoe...this is the first time playing canoe...2 of us paddle quite hard to another land...kk,keat and pc joined no longer...we picked some shells and started our journey to another beach...2 of us was extremely exhausted...as this is the first time we dont know how to direct the canoe...and guess what? a big fishing boat was nearby and we are still stopping there...god! *panic* kian n cc ask us to paddle off...so 2 of us paddle sooo hard until we stay far away from the boat...'phew' it was close...something that we both missed is that they were able to paddle to another land and see corals and see turtle...and we both girls are too exhausted...too bad...but it was really really fun!!! all of us paddle back to the shore and exchange canoes...i get on a single canoe and started paddling...shit! it was hard...gotta use more stamina...i try paddling nearby...and kian shouted that there's a boat coming in...damn...cc n kian try to pull me off the jetty so that it is safe...=(...when the boat came near..it created big waves...at this moment...we paddle back to the shore...it was so fun to paddle on waves...*syok* after parking our canoe...we went to the water and 'float' with the life jacket...cooling...NIcE! we took group photos with out paddle at the beach..hehe...after returning the stuff we r in the pool again..hehe...soaking again...trying to cool down the body...back to shower after that...Exhausting Day! right after shower we walked out to get our stomach fill...we had dinner in another restaurant outside the resort...again we ordered a whole table of food...hmm..lousy food..but i wasnt expecting too much...bought some mineral water and snack back to the room...headed to fun club again for 'mahjong'...this time we rented for 2 hours...wakakaka...i was a lil dizzy at that moment...din play much...thier skills are improving so much...i was a bit blur blur during the game...2 hours passed...uncle asked us to stop playing coz he's closing the door already...went back to room and watches tv...after the show everyone goes to bed...*tired*


4th day(19/5)

no breakfast for today...5 of them went canoeing again...actually i wanted to join too..but i slept late...so i accompany carmen to take some pictures...we went to the beach...the hut...around the resort...took quite a lot of pictures...i picked a few flowers from the garden and we took pictures with it...hehehe...fun! while taking pictures near our suite...they r back...everyone took thier shower and packed up things...carmen ordered a pizza and we have it for lunch in the room...well...its time to check out...i called a buggy to take out luggage down the lobby...after settling those payments we rode a bus to the airport...goodbye berjaya! check in counter was closed...so we played chor dai d at the custom table...hahaha...waited for about 10 minutes...kian settles the air ticket while we waited at the side...the plane arrives on time...but when we tot we can go on board...technical problem again...damn.! delayed for about 30 minutes...finally! soon after departure everyone started to snooze...*blink* arrived at subang...dad fetches me,cc,kian n carmen while the 3 of them took taxi backed home...reached home...home sweet home...they transfer thier luggage into my car and we headed to abaz for lunch at about 4pm...we were so hungry and everyone was doubling up thier food consuming..haha..me too..so fat! at nite...went to have bak kut teh for dinner...delicious..reviewing on the trip...discussing about the 'roxy girl' and other stuff..hehe..after that they came to my house to get those pictures...and now my shoulders are burned and im so tanned..haha...im writing this for 2 hours n more...ah...FINISH

END OF VACATION

a small truth to make our lives 100%
~~

if
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is equal to
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 1718 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

then hardwork=
H+A+R+D+W+O+R+K =
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% only

knowledge=
K+N+O+W+L+E+D+G+E=
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% only

love=
L+O+V+E=
12+15+22+5=54% only

luck=
L+U+C+K =
12+21+3+11 = 47% only (don't most of us think this is most important???)

then what makes 100% is it
money? ..... no
leadership? ...... no

every problem has a solution, only if
we perhaps change our attitude. to
go to the top, to that 100%.

what we really need to go further, a
bit more.......
attitude=
A+T+T+I+T+U+D+E =
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

it is our attitude towards life and
work that makes our life 100%

what i need is LOVE + LUCK that makes it = 101%

Your #1 Match: ISFP

The Artist You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now). You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children. Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life. Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs. You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

Your #2 Match: INFP

The Idealist You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop. You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #3 Match: ISTP

The Mechanic You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations. A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent. To outsiders yous eem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable. You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people. You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.

Your #4 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

Your #5 Match: INTP

The Thinker You are analytical and logical - and on a quest to learn everything you can. Smart and complex, you always love a new intellectual challenge. Your biggest pet peeve is people who slow you down with trivial chit chat. A quiet maverick, you tend to ignore rules and authority whenever you feel like it. You would make an excellent mathematician, programmer, or professor.

What's Your Personality Type?

You Will Die at Age 73

73 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

hmm..a few more hours i'll be leaving...oh shit..i dun feel like going...wtf am i thinking...just got all the packs done..F..be back on thursday!

Archoo~~~~sneezing cause by insufficient sleeping...i worked and worked and worked..too much of workloads...wish samantha could stay...4 more days to holiday...get the ass out of here...woo hoo~

Fly~

IN A moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulderS
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
'Cause it's your time
Time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
'Cause it's your time
Time to fly

And when you're down and feeling low,
Just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

In a moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life(can't in life)
and start to try
Fly
Forget about the reasons why you
can't in life(can't in life)
and start to try (start to try)
'cause it's your time, time to fly

Any moment everything can change

guilty

VS 1 - (DUNCAN)

I never want to play the games that people play
I never want to hear the things they gotta say
I've found everything I need
I never wanted anymore than I can see
I only want you to believe

CHORUS - (LEE)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - [ALL]
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - [ALL]

Then I'm guilty

VS2 - (SIMON)
I wanna give you all the things you never had
Don't try to tell me how he treats you isn't bad
I need you back in my life
I never wanted just to be the other guy (be the other guy - LEE)
I never wanted to live a lie

CHORUS - (LEE)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
What am I supposed to do
All I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - ALL
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime - ALL
Then I'm guilty

BRIDGE - (ANTONY)
Girl I followed my heart
Followed the truth
Right from the start it led me to you
Please don't leave me this way
I'm guilty now all I have to say

CHORUS - (LEE)
If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind) - ALL
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my hearts a crime - ALL
Then I'm guilty

OUTRO
What am I supposed to do (Duncan)
Then I'm guilty (Lee)
All I wanna do is speak my mind (All)
Gulity (Lee)
Then I'm guilty (Lee)
I'm prepared to testify (Duncan)
If it's wrong to do what's right then tell me about this feeling inside (Lee)
If loving you with all my hearts a crime (All)
I'm Guilty (Duncan)

excessive depression

My feelings for everything has gone...drove by myself...listening to loud music in the car...my heart was like stop beating...so calm..so calm...brains are empty...i sped a little...wish to get home as soon as possible...i know that my 'good old friend' came to find me...know this 'friend' since i was f3...okok...the 'friend' i am refering was my 'depression syndrome'...perhaps these days im locking myself up at home...i wish i can stop using my brain to think...it makes me suffer quite a lot...going to RIP soon..

more to life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

CHORUS:
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more

(Than wanting more)

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

CHORUS

I'm wanting more

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...

CHORUS - repeat twice

More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life

somewhere only we know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So, if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This can be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And, if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Listening to Shut up by simple plan...feel extremely good...wasn't having any good mood these few days...maybe im too bored or something...I hate myself...i couldn't do anything to cheer up...im thinking quite a lot these days...am i that stressful? I donno...i'll be dying soon...so soon~